Just give me a reason

Just a little bit's enough

Just a second we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

It's in the stars

It's been written in the scars on our hearts

That we're not broken just bent

And we can learn to love again

Omaigod! This song is haunted. Takde suara pon aku gigih nak nyanyi ala-ala Pink. Haha... Tapi time serak basah ni menjadi jugak la suara Pink. Muahaha =)

Hmm...aku suka lagu ni sebab aku rasa lagu ni macam mencerminkan asam garam kehidupan  lovey-dovey. Mana ada kapel yang tak gaduh, campak phone ke seat belakang, keluar kete dan hempas pintu, and so on...Seyes takde.

So lagu ni macam menceritakan saat-saat rasa menyampah nak tengok muka masing-masing, rasa macam this is the end, memang over habis lah! Tapi lepas 2 jam (it depends), korang akan on phone, check miskol, bila takde sekeping pon korang akan naik hangin, then kol your bf/gf sebab nak marah asal takde miskol langsung. Takkan tak concern kan? 

Haha...Memang lawak sebenarnya. Aku tak tau la kes korang camne. Tapi ni memang truly deeply madly my case. Tadi gaduh pasal lain. Pastu sebab tension takde miskol, aku kol and marah pasal lain plak. Pastu lupa dah ape ntah gaduh memula tadi. LoL.

Betul la..we're not broken just bent. And we definitely can learn to love again! Aku ni memang takde kemahiran nak marah lama-lama. Tapi aku memang expert bab marah pasal 1o benda dalam 10 saat. HaHa. 

Lepas aku marah takde miskol, aku akan marah pasal bf diam je tak nak cakap. Padahal sebenarnya dia malas nak layan. Dia biar je aku cakap pape. Sape tak marah bila cakap sorang-sorang kan?

Pastu aku akan marah dia tak concentrate bila aku cakap, then aku dah sampai puncak kehanginan, aku akan cakap takpe lah kalau malas nak cakap ngan aku, pegi lah buat pape yang dia suka. Rasa macam lantak lah, tak koser nak pikir.

Tapi bila dia cakap, OKAY.................Temperature naiiiikkkkkkkkkk >..<

Suke la tu tak bercakap ngan aku, ke ada nak kol pompuan lain mamat ni?? Dengan orang lain boleh plak pot pet pot pet!!

Tensi!

Ya...itu lah kemahiran aku untuk tension pasal 10 benda dalam 10 saat. Lepas aku penat, baru la bf aku layan. Masalahnya....lepas sekian lama ni, dia dah paham sangat perangai aku. Dan dia dah develop cara untuk counter attack, iaitu berdiam diri.

Scheiss @^^@

Part Nate Ruess nyanyi pon macam kena dengan my dearest bf.

Why you dont understand where all this coming from? We're not fine!

My head aint running wild and no bad dreams wutsoeva!

It IS as bad as it seems. Grrrrrrrr...

But... 

We're not broken just bent and we can learn to love again (^_^) \/

When I was in Germany, I had to pay quite an amount to the insurance company. It was compulsory and thus, I thought it might be good to pay the dentist a visit. The old man was nice and gentle to the patient. When he first examined my teeth, he said that I needed an x-ray. I agreed. Free meh..

Ater he looked at the result, which I never had a chance to see it myself due to unknown reasons, he turned to me and said, "You have a serious problem. Do you have any family members with teeth problems?" I replied, "As fas as I am concerned, NO."

Then, he continued with the fillings and stuff. Because of the language barrier, we didn't have a chance to have a professional dentist-to-patient conversation. So the matter was left unresolved. I did not experienced any pain, hence the issue was forgotten.

Today, I had an appointment with a specialist at a nearby clinic. She consulted me on how the braces will alter the position of the teeth and make them straight. BUT...the braces will bring no change to my jaw which is a part of my facial bone structure.

You are getting confuse right? Haha...Let me enlighten you about the actual problem. 

Pic above is showing a problem of uneven gummy line. Now, my condition is somewhat similar, the difference is that it happens to my jaw (bone line). But of course la..the line is not as bad as portrayed above. Only three front teeth are affected as they drop a bit from the axis and cause some misalignment. 

The orthodontic specialist said that the braces will fix the misalignment but the laying axis will remain. Plus, two extractions needed for my upper teeth section. Or else, I will be a bit jongang and thus, the treatment fails to serve its purpose.

I am not afraid of the extractions since they will numb it. So I should have no problem to do it, except that my healthy teeth have sentimental values. Of course la kan? HaHa. However, after I learn about my once forgotten condition, I convince myself to put the plan on possibly a long hold and live with it as always.

I wish that I can speak Deutsch very well back then so that I will not have to spend that f**king RM 80 for the specialist consultant. Sigh. 

Put it this way, Lord has granted me his bless for me to save money for the nikah. I am at ease now =)

Hari tu bila kol mama and cakap pasal nak pakai betulkan gigi ni, mama macam terus naik hangin. I know, swasta memang berganda mahal dari gomen. Tapi kalau swasta, kita boleh pegi on weekends untuk monthly routine tu. Celah mana aku nak menyelinap keluar time opis hour kalau pegi gomen. Tambahan pula...ntah bila la turn aku nak pakai braces. Dengar citer cam queue panjang je.

Pastu mama pon cakap nanti dia tanya kat bahagian pergigian kat klinik kesihatan dia, kot la aku boleh buat cepat. Tapi nun di sungai petani, aku tak berharap sangat la kan. Finally esoknya aku kol lagi, mama cakap doktor perubatan and doktor gigi kementerian pertahanan semua kena pegi sabah untuk stand by sebagai barisan terakhir. Aku cam pelik, asal doktor gigi pon pegi kan. Mama cakap ye la..kalau gigi diorang patah ke boleh la doktor gigi tengok. Hmm...

So aku buat la appointment ngan pakar kat Klinik Qaseh esok. Tengok la apa dia cakap. Harap-harap gigi aku ni tak la susah sangat dia nak adjust. Braces pon ada mechanical process tau. Gigi dari tengah langit pon boleh kembali ke jalan yang benar. Tak caye cuba youtube. Seyes!

Dan juga, hopefully aku tak yah cabut gigi. Sayang la gigi yang sihat ni. Aigoo...

Boyfriend does not want to quit smoking and he care less about appearance. All he ever said was "nanti, nanti and nanti." When is nanti? Nanti in most cases has the same meaning with never right? 

Parents just expect me to understand why my sister needs this, why my brother must have that and why I should not ever question them. Why I should give up mine to open a path for them.

Been thinking to book a two hundred and thirty one ringgit Airasia ticket home. Guess may have to forget about it due to lost of interest.

Best thing about having a hard time, I love to get all the stuffs out through a good session of workout.

 

Sedar tak sedar dah sebulan aku praktikal. Masa mula-mula memang la take time nak sesuaikan diri dengan persekitaran baru..after sebulan ni, aku pon dah boleh masuk ngan colleague. Tua or muda semua senang nak approach. Alhamdulillah...bertemu jodoh dengan company ni kat jobstreet. 

Kesimpulan praktikal selama sebulan ni....best! Aku buat apa yang aku suka...and makin mendalami kerja seorang pipeline engineer. Yang penting, memang apply apa yang aku belajar kat uni, walaupon tak semua, of course la kan....bila dah kerja, mesti la fokus kat bidang tertentu.

As for now, subjek yang paling banyak apply kat pipeline ialah Fluid Mechanics. Sebab offshore pipeline memang submerged in water, laid or buried in the seabed...so constantly exposed to hydrostatic pressure. Alhamdulillah...ngan dengan jiwa. HaHa. Cuma desk job, still shiroooooo!! 

Hari tu sebab terlalu tengok pc, aku rasa macam mata ni nak meletop! Kering dan pening kepala. Pakai lense plak tu...So maybe the knowledge itself yang aku suka. Sekarang aku kerja kat company consultant. Moga-moga ada peluang nak masuk clients side.

Btw, ujung bulan cheque dah keluarrrrrrr..happy! Even dulu keje contract kat CIMB lagi banyak dapat, tapi still...my first pay as an engineer (trainee). Of course la happy =)

Duit ni nak simpan untuk tabung kawen...Moga dijauhkan syaiton Iphone!