Saya suka gambar ini sebab saya sangat ceria <(^_^)>
Two pregnancy check-ups later...
5 years ago
Sweet dreams, love
Just got back from London. These 5 days were wonderful even in the coldest winter. We managed to cover 90% of the must-visit list which includes sightseeing, cam whoring and of course shopping! Thinking that how lucky you're are if you can walk on the UK streets all the time do make me jealous. Boxing day was totally amazing, only that I couldn't find how to get the yellow Selfridges. Six entrances and I felt like leaving my feet behind. Everything was all about grabbing everything and trying them in a blink. There were times that I prayed time could stop and everyone freezed, excluding me. Haha. I wanted to kick that them who kept throwing clothes on the floor. They should learn to appreciate things. How am I gonna live without my cards that day <(^_^)>
Malaysian Hall...Quite a nice place to visit everyday. Hahaha. Masak lemak ikan tenggiri that I could never forget, at least until I'm home this Feb. My ikan keli's desire shall rather wait than spending 9 pound each. I thought it was a big hall with many stalls. It's a canteen actually. But who cares... Seemed like home. There you could find young children talking with Brit-ish accent. Cool huh! Next underground station...'Wat-loo'
Cam whoring? Don't need to say it out loud here. I don't mind being called a cam whore. It's 99% true that I like taking pictures.
Finally we managed to get home safely. We went through obstacles together and it turned up to be an exciting Chrismas break. It was love-lay since the first day someone said to me, "Welcome to UK!"
There's always a but in a sentence. Unfortunately, I found out that I've been back stabbed! This doesn't sound noice. Although it didn't affect my entire mood, I wish that the people whose names should be shitted on just mind their own business. Or am I interupting your life? Ouh.. I almost forgot, I was born with that magnetic personality. Don't blame me for the fortune cookies. Hohohoho:)
Malaysian Hall...Quite a nice place to visit everyday. Hahaha. Masak lemak ikan tenggiri that I could never forget, at least until I'm home this Feb. My ikan keli's desire shall rather wait than spending 9 pound each. I thought it was a big hall with many stalls. It's a canteen actually. But who cares... Seemed like home. There you could find young children talking with Brit-ish accent. Cool huh! Next underground station...'Wat-loo'
Cam whoring? Don't need to say it out loud here. I don't mind being called a cam whore. It's 99% true that I like taking pictures.
Finally we managed to get home safely. We went through obstacles together and it turned up to be an exciting Chrismas break. It was love-lay since the first day someone said to me, "Welcome to UK!"
There's always a but in a sentence. Unfortunately, I found out that I've been back stabbed! This doesn't sound noice. Although it didn't affect my entire mood, I wish that the people whose names should be shitted on just mind their own business. Or am I interupting your life? Ouh.. I almost forgot, I was born with that magnetic personality. Don't blame me for the fortune cookies. Hohohoho:)
Patung tomei :)
Bila tengok dua patung monumen yang kecik comel ini, tiba2 minat plak nk pg muzium art. Nak tengok hasil2 ceramic yang pelbagai bentuk. Tak mau la kalo setakat buat bentuk mangkuk ja. Haha. Kepada pembuat kraftangan ceramic, sila la rajin2 kan diri anda untuk lebih kreatif ya. Thank you in advance <(^_^)>
Tanya sama pokok, apa sebab goyang....
Responding this post.
What would you choose if God let you decide how would you die?
a) Fatal diseases.
Benefit(s): You'll know how much time that you have and how much air left for you to breath. That way, you'll know how you should spend your remaining life.
Consequence(s): You'll be scared to death knowing the fact that death is coming for you very soon. Due to some psychology effects, you might die sooner than expected.
b)Sudden car accident.
Benefits(s): Your life has no worries because you'll never expect to die that soon. You might be enjoying your life right away before you crash your car.
Consequence(s): You might achieve nothing yet in your life. You're still searching for your goal and suddenly you die. You don't have a chance to say a proper goodbye to your loved one.
c)Suicide.
Benefit(s): NONE
Consequence(s): You're actually booking a ticket to hell. If you feel that your life is already like hell, then your afterlife will be surely in hell.
What would you choose if God let you decide how would you die?
a) Fatal diseases.
Benefit(s): You'll know how much time that you have and how much air left for you to breath. That way, you'll know how you should spend your remaining life.
Consequence(s): You'll be scared to death knowing the fact that death is coming for you very soon. Due to some psychology effects, you might die sooner than expected.
b)Sudden car accident.
Benefits(s): Your life has no worries because you'll never expect to die that soon. You might be enjoying your life right away before you crash your car.
Consequence(s): You might achieve nothing yet in your life. You're still searching for your goal and suddenly you die. You don't have a chance to say a proper goodbye to your loved one.
c)Suicide.
Benefit(s): NONE
Consequence(s): You're actually booking a ticket to hell. If you feel that your life is already like hell, then your afterlife will be surely in hell.
Press Conference Feezah Hanimoon
Kalo diberi peluang untuk memilih satu perasaan yang paling tidak digemari, saya akan jawab begini.
Bagi saya, saya tak mahu hidup dalam penyesalan kerana saya tak suka perasaan menyesal. Saya tak suka bila sesuatu itu dah terlambat dan tiada ruang untuk berpatah balik. Penyesalan semestinya melibatkan keterlanjuran sesuatu, perbuatan tanpa akal fikiran, sesuatu akibat atas perbuatan yang tak pernah diduga etc. Semua ini sudah tentu membawa kepada kesedihan, kepedihan dan kesengsaraan. Dan saya tak mampu untuk menghadapi kekesalan dalam hidup.
Sekuat mana pon seseorang, sudah tentu dia akan melalui peringkat pertama dalam penyesalan iaitu tak dapat menerima hakikat sesuatu. Walaupun segalanya takdir Allah, tapi kebarangkalian 1% tetap akan terdetik dalam hati menolak aturan hidup. Memang benar jodoh pertemuan, ajal dan maut di tangan tuhan. Namun susah untuk menerima hakikat yang sesungguhnya langit tak selalunya cerah.
Saya mahu pulang Winter break ini. Saya mahu pulang menemui semua yang saya sayangi. Kebelakangan ini ramai kenalan yang menyahut panggilan Allah. Saya berfikir, apa yang akan saya lalui sekiranya tiba-tiba Papa, Mama, Wani, Ariff atau Mr. D dijemput Allah ketika saya di bumi perantauan ini. Saya mungkin tertanya mengapa perkara ini terjadi dan mempersoalkan takdir ketika emosi di luar kawalan. Dan yang paling menakutkan, apakah tahap penyesalan yang saya akan lalui sekiranya saya tak sempat menemui mereka yang tersayang buat kali terakhir, walaupon saya mempunyai peluang untuk berbuat demikian. Dan sudah tentu apabila saya menyesal, peluang itu sudah lenyap dan segalanya terlambat.
Di tengah lebuhraya dalam perjalanan pulang beraya dari Teluk Intan, Perak. 5 km dari susur keluar ke Kulim, papa dan mama berbeza pendapat. Mama mahu terus pulang kerana esoknya kerja. Papa mahu singgah ke Kulim untuk menjenguk orang tuanya. Akhirnya papa mengalah dan setibanya di susur keluar, papa tidak membelok. April 2002, arwah Tok Jam pergi meninggalkan kami semua disabitkan dengan pembunuhan kejam perompak. Panggilan telefon pukul 5 pagi dari kampung sudah tentu membuatkan papa tak senang duduk, menggeletar dan yang paling ketara....menyesal. Papa seorang yang tabah dan rasional. Tapi sehebat mana pon, papa tetap dibelenggu penyesalan sampai sekarang.
Panggilan telefon saya ke Malaysia, papa sering bertanyakan tentang semester break. Namun papa tak menyebut apa mahunya melainkan bertanya. Hingga lah saya mengambil keputusan memberitahu papa yang jika tiada aral melintang, saya akan pulang. Papa gembira dan memang dia mahu saya pulang. Papa cakap, "Baliklah tengok mak ayah." Baik papa. Selagi mampu Hanim akan balik dan takkan melepaskan satu peluang pon, demi Hanim tak menyesal suatu hari nanti. Papa sebenarnya tak mahu pisang berbuah dua kali.
Penyesalan terdiri daripada pelbagai kategori. Menyesal memadam jawapan yang betul ketika peperiksaan. Menyesal tidur lambat dan bangun sangat lambat hingga jumlah mati dalam sehari melebihi hidup. Menyesal beli sesuatu kehendak terlalu awal, sedangkan minggu depannya sale. Namun saya tetap berpendapat bahawa sekiranya saya memilih untuk tak bertemu orang yang tersayang, penyesalan hidup yang paling berat adalah saya terlepas peluang terakhir atas pilihan sendiri untuk bercakap dengan mereka, melihat mereka ketawa dan memegang tangan mereka yang masih panas.
Jangan ditanya kenapa saya mahu balik Winter ini atau Winter yang lain. Jangan dipersoal kenapa saya mahu praktikal di Malaysia. Jangan serkap jarang yang segalanya semata-mata cinta kepada si dia. Sebab sekiranya saya hidup dalam penyesalan, adakah ada antara mereka yang gah bercakap ini akan merasa penyesalan yang sama? Memang benar pengalaman di sini sangat berharga dan elaun mahal. Memang benar saya berpeluang menjelajah dunia sementara berada di sini. Tapi semua ini boleh ditebus kembali jika mahu. Saya masih boleh mencari pengalaman di sini kemudian hari. Saya masih boleh melancong ke Europe jika keadaan mengizinkan. Saya tak terkilan jika tak berpeluang sekalipun. Adakah saya masih boleh bertemu mereka yang meninggalkan saya selamanya? Dan benar saya akan bertemu mereka di alam akhirat, tapi dalam keadaan yang bagaimana?
Saya memang lemah kerana saya sejujurnya takut untuk kehilangan orang yang tersayang. Hakikat yang saya masih belum kehilangan salah seorang dari mereka lagi membuatkan saya lebih takut. Saya tak mempersoalkan kuasa tuhan dalam hal di luar jangkauan manusia ini. Saya hanya merancang untuk tidak melepaskan setiap peluang bersama mereka. Namun sekiranya Allah mempunyai aturan yang lebih baik, hamba yang hina ini sangatlah tak berupaya untuk menentang.
Saya selalu berdoa supaya Allah jangan jemput mereka selagi saya tidak bersedia, sedangkan saya tak akan pernah sedia. Maut tak akan cepat atau lambat walau sesaat. Atau mungkinkah Allah telah lama menerima doa saya dan akan menjemput saya dahulu sebelum mereka? Persoalan ini hanya akan diketahui jawapannya bila sudah sampai masanya.
Wahai kawan-kawan, khabarkan padaku... Adakah apa yang saya fikir ini tak berasas? Saya hanya takut untuk kehilangan orang tersayang. Dan lebih takut sekiranya saya terlepas peluang terakhir untuk bersama mereka. Memang Allah menentukan segalanya, tapi andai kata ia disabitkan dengan kemahuan hati, saya tentu tak dapat memaafkan diri sendiri kerana membuat pilihan yang salah. Mungkin ada yang berpendapat biarlah segalanya terserah pada takdir kerana masa depan adalah rahsia Allah. Saya setuju. Tapi kita sentiasa diberi pilihan untuk menentukan gambaran awal masa depan.
Kawan-kawan, apakah penyesalan dalam hidup yang paling unbearable bagi anda? Adakah jenis perasaan lain yang membuatkan kita tersungkur jatuh selain daripada menyesal?
Untuk sesiapa yang tak pernah tahu lagu Menyesal, tengok klip ini. Hayati liriknya dan anda akan tahu kisahnya.
Semasa mengarang entry ini, saya tak sama sekali emo dgn siapa pun. Ini hanyalah emo dengan diri sendiri. Saya memang mempunyai sindrom ETT iaitu emo tiba-tiba. Unpredictable. Setelah membaca kembali sepintas lalu, dari kacamata pembaca, saya rasa entry ini agak over kerana saya tak pernah melalui tragedi lagi. Tapi jika meletakkan diri dari sudut lain, saya yakin ada yang pernah melaluinya dan tidak boleh tidak setuju dengan karangan SPM terbaik ini.
Motif saya gunakan frasa italic maroon ini adalah supaya calon-calon SPM yang google karangan tertipu lagi. Haha...need something to cheer me up back <(^_^)>
Bagi saya, saya tak mahu hidup dalam penyesalan kerana saya tak suka perasaan menyesal. Saya tak suka bila sesuatu itu dah terlambat dan tiada ruang untuk berpatah balik. Penyesalan semestinya melibatkan keterlanjuran sesuatu, perbuatan tanpa akal fikiran, sesuatu akibat atas perbuatan yang tak pernah diduga etc. Semua ini sudah tentu membawa kepada kesedihan, kepedihan dan kesengsaraan. Dan saya tak mampu untuk menghadapi kekesalan dalam hidup.
Sekuat mana pon seseorang, sudah tentu dia akan melalui peringkat pertama dalam penyesalan iaitu tak dapat menerima hakikat sesuatu. Walaupun segalanya takdir Allah, tapi kebarangkalian 1% tetap akan terdetik dalam hati menolak aturan hidup. Memang benar jodoh pertemuan, ajal dan maut di tangan tuhan. Namun susah untuk menerima hakikat yang sesungguhnya langit tak selalunya cerah.
Saya mahu pulang Winter break ini. Saya mahu pulang menemui semua yang saya sayangi. Kebelakangan ini ramai kenalan yang menyahut panggilan Allah. Saya berfikir, apa yang akan saya lalui sekiranya tiba-tiba Papa, Mama, Wani, Ariff atau Mr. D dijemput Allah ketika saya di bumi perantauan ini. Saya mungkin tertanya mengapa perkara ini terjadi dan mempersoalkan takdir ketika emosi di luar kawalan. Dan yang paling menakutkan, apakah tahap penyesalan yang saya akan lalui sekiranya saya tak sempat menemui mereka yang tersayang buat kali terakhir, walaupon saya mempunyai peluang untuk berbuat demikian. Dan sudah tentu apabila saya menyesal, peluang itu sudah lenyap dan segalanya terlambat.
Di tengah lebuhraya dalam perjalanan pulang beraya dari Teluk Intan, Perak. 5 km dari susur keluar ke Kulim, papa dan mama berbeza pendapat. Mama mahu terus pulang kerana esoknya kerja. Papa mahu singgah ke Kulim untuk menjenguk orang tuanya. Akhirnya papa mengalah dan setibanya di susur keluar, papa tidak membelok. April 2002, arwah Tok Jam pergi meninggalkan kami semua disabitkan dengan pembunuhan kejam perompak. Panggilan telefon pukul 5 pagi dari kampung sudah tentu membuatkan papa tak senang duduk, menggeletar dan yang paling ketara....menyesal. Papa seorang yang tabah dan rasional. Tapi sehebat mana pon, papa tetap dibelenggu penyesalan sampai sekarang.
Panggilan telefon saya ke Malaysia, papa sering bertanyakan tentang semester break. Namun papa tak menyebut apa mahunya melainkan bertanya. Hingga lah saya mengambil keputusan memberitahu papa yang jika tiada aral melintang, saya akan pulang. Papa gembira dan memang dia mahu saya pulang. Papa cakap, "Baliklah tengok mak ayah." Baik papa. Selagi mampu Hanim akan balik dan takkan melepaskan satu peluang pon, demi Hanim tak menyesal suatu hari nanti. Papa sebenarnya tak mahu pisang berbuah dua kali.
Penyesalan terdiri daripada pelbagai kategori. Menyesal memadam jawapan yang betul ketika peperiksaan. Menyesal tidur lambat dan bangun sangat lambat hingga jumlah mati dalam sehari melebihi hidup. Menyesal beli sesuatu kehendak terlalu awal, sedangkan minggu depannya sale. Namun saya tetap berpendapat bahawa sekiranya saya memilih untuk tak bertemu orang yang tersayang, penyesalan hidup yang paling berat adalah saya terlepas peluang terakhir atas pilihan sendiri untuk bercakap dengan mereka, melihat mereka ketawa dan memegang tangan mereka yang masih panas.
Jangan ditanya kenapa saya mahu balik Winter ini atau Winter yang lain. Jangan dipersoal kenapa saya mahu praktikal di Malaysia. Jangan serkap jarang yang segalanya semata-mata cinta kepada si dia. Sebab sekiranya saya hidup dalam penyesalan, adakah ada antara mereka yang gah bercakap ini akan merasa penyesalan yang sama? Memang benar pengalaman di sini sangat berharga dan elaun mahal. Memang benar saya berpeluang menjelajah dunia sementara berada di sini. Tapi semua ini boleh ditebus kembali jika mahu. Saya masih boleh mencari pengalaman di sini kemudian hari. Saya masih boleh melancong ke Europe jika keadaan mengizinkan. Saya tak terkilan jika tak berpeluang sekalipun. Adakah saya masih boleh bertemu mereka yang meninggalkan saya selamanya? Dan benar saya akan bertemu mereka di alam akhirat, tapi dalam keadaan yang bagaimana?
Saya memang lemah kerana saya sejujurnya takut untuk kehilangan orang yang tersayang. Hakikat yang saya masih belum kehilangan salah seorang dari mereka lagi membuatkan saya lebih takut. Saya tak mempersoalkan kuasa tuhan dalam hal di luar jangkauan manusia ini. Saya hanya merancang untuk tidak melepaskan setiap peluang bersama mereka. Namun sekiranya Allah mempunyai aturan yang lebih baik, hamba yang hina ini sangatlah tak berupaya untuk menentang.
Saya selalu berdoa supaya Allah jangan jemput mereka selagi saya tidak bersedia, sedangkan saya tak akan pernah sedia. Maut tak akan cepat atau lambat walau sesaat. Atau mungkinkah Allah telah lama menerima doa saya dan akan menjemput saya dahulu sebelum mereka? Persoalan ini hanya akan diketahui jawapannya bila sudah sampai masanya.
Wahai kawan-kawan, khabarkan padaku... Adakah apa yang saya fikir ini tak berasas? Saya hanya takut untuk kehilangan orang tersayang. Dan lebih takut sekiranya saya terlepas peluang terakhir untuk bersama mereka. Memang Allah menentukan segalanya, tapi andai kata ia disabitkan dengan kemahuan hati, saya tentu tak dapat memaafkan diri sendiri kerana membuat pilihan yang salah. Mungkin ada yang berpendapat biarlah segalanya terserah pada takdir kerana masa depan adalah rahsia Allah. Saya setuju. Tapi kita sentiasa diberi pilihan untuk menentukan gambaran awal masa depan.
Kawan-kawan, apakah penyesalan dalam hidup yang paling unbearable bagi anda? Adakah jenis perasaan lain yang membuatkan kita tersungkur jatuh selain daripada menyesal?
Untuk sesiapa yang tak pernah tahu lagu Menyesal, tengok klip ini. Hayati liriknya dan anda akan tahu kisahnya.
Semasa mengarang entry ini, saya tak sama sekali emo dgn siapa pun. Ini hanyalah emo dengan diri sendiri. Saya memang mempunyai sindrom ETT iaitu emo tiba-tiba. Unpredictable. Setelah membaca kembali sepintas lalu, dari kacamata pembaca, saya rasa entry ini agak over kerana saya tak pernah melalui tragedi lagi. Tapi jika meletakkan diri dari sudut lain, saya yakin ada yang pernah melaluinya dan tidak boleh tidak setuju dengan karangan SPM terbaik ini.
Motif saya gunakan frasa italic maroon ini adalah supaya calon-calon SPM yang google karangan tertipu lagi. Haha...need something to cheer me up back <(^_^)>
Fantastic Four :)
Nasi putih+ikan keli goreng is my first choice for lunch. During my kikilala time at GMI, I always headed to the nasi lauk stall which offered this ikan keli goreng. I'm not even close to my no-more-ikan keli limit right now. My favourite one is the crispy side and end part which you call it 'tail'. How can I describe the beauty of having this delicious lunch set. Of course, it's my first choice after landing at the airport back home.
This is my all-time favourite burger from Ramly a.k.a burger jual tepi jalan oleh adik2 part-time lepasan SPM atau abang2 full-time yg business minded. Haha :) I even enjoy watching them preparing it. The best part is when they slice the beef or chicken without fully separate the two parts. I guess all the adik2 and abang2 need to master this skill before making up their mind to open a burger stall. Not just cincang2 like the old corner burger stall at GMI's hostel.
Does anybody miss the Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence? I miss to have it on my taste buds. My hunger and unconditional desires suddenly rise up. Wahhhhhhh....looks so yummy (^_^) Creamy and rich Belgian coverture chocolate and white chocolate filling. Absolutely a luscious, luxurious, sinfully rich chocolate lover's dream.
Once my German teacher said, "Malaysia is a shopping paradise."
I said, "Malaysia is also a food heaven."
Together my German teacher and I said, "Malaysia is a food heaven and shopping paradise!"
Do I need to write more here?? Fried banana (direct translation to Pisang Goreng) is simply heaven for afternoon tea while watching Sinetron Anakku Bukan Anakku. Hoyeah!
Once my German teacher said, "Malaysia is a shopping paradise."
I said, "Malaysia is also a food heaven."
Together my German teacher and I said, "Malaysia is a food heaven and shopping paradise!"
Bila bulan bicara...panjang pulak ceritanya.
Dah lama rasanya aku tak buat entry bahasa kebangsaan. Dalam kekusyukan sembahyang Isyak tadi, syaitan laknat membuatkan fikiran aku melayang seketika. Ketika aku melayang ke dunia antara pintu syurga dan pintu neraka itu, terdetik satu soalan di hatiku. Apakah perkara paling menyedihkan pernah berlaku dalam hidupku? Tak sempat syaitan menggoda aku untuk memberi jawapan yang panjang berjela untuk soalan itu, hidayah Allah datang dan aku kembali mengadap-Nya.
Jadi selepas berdoa penuh rendah diri dan menyangkut telekung, aku segera mencapai kembali kacamataku dan membuka tab public diary ini. Sesungguhnya aku ingin menyambung persoalan yang baru 10 minit terbuku di otak bekuku. Ingin aku ceritakan di sini segala kisah duka yang aku lalui.
Tapi, pada minit ke 11 aku rasakan yg sepertimana tiada keperluan untuk aku membuka tudung saji di atas meja pada siang bulan Ramadhan, maka tiada keperluan lah juga untuk aku mengarang cerita sedih di sini. Cuma apa yg ingin aku suarakan, aku kini agak perasan yg aku sudah menjadi semakin matang setelah melalui pelbagai ranjau kehidupan. Termasuk menonton drama Cina dan Jepun sepanjang hari. Sesetengah pihak mungkin mempertikaikan hal ini kerana beranggapan bahawa ianya membuang masa semata. Namun sebenarnya ada nilai murni dan pengajaran yg dapat ku serap. Ini adalah fakta.
Jadi selepas berdoa penuh rendah diri dan menyangkut telekung, aku segera mencapai kembali kacamataku dan membuka tab public diary ini. Sesungguhnya aku ingin menyambung persoalan yang baru 10 minit terbuku di otak bekuku. Ingin aku ceritakan di sini segala kisah duka yang aku lalui.
Tapi, pada minit ke 11 aku rasakan yg sepertimana tiada keperluan untuk aku membuka tudung saji di atas meja pada siang bulan Ramadhan, maka tiada keperluan lah juga untuk aku mengarang cerita sedih di sini. Cuma apa yg ingin aku suarakan, aku kini agak perasan yg aku sudah menjadi semakin matang setelah melalui pelbagai ranjau kehidupan. Termasuk menonton drama Cina dan Jepun sepanjang hari. Sesetengah pihak mungkin mempertikaikan hal ini kerana beranggapan bahawa ianya membuang masa semata. Namun sebenarnya ada nilai murni dan pengajaran yg dapat ku serap. Ini adalah fakta.
ps: camna wei komsas aku? berguru kepalang ajar atau bunga kembang tak jadi? haha..
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I think it's better for me to combine two different things in a single entry. Just now I kept thinking about miseries in life (miseries la sangat). Right now, I have this energetic feeling and therefore start writing in a very very good mood.
I am so impatient to have a new stage in life. After re-reading my friend's post about delivering a baby and comments, I think I am eager to be a wife and a mother. I know that the responsibilities are quite challenging. But seems now I have already be somebody's other part, I am at least 80% sure that I am ready to tie a knot with him officially. Don't get me wrong. It's not about that sexual attraction or what so ever.
Now both of us has started seriously planning about our future. We have a target that we must by hook or by crook accomplish the mission end of this year. I am turning 23 next year. Does anyone might have a clue why am I not suppose to worry about life? Seeing old friends walk around the job streets and some might already start their own business, I personally think that I don't have a specific duration just to enjoy myself before married. If I still have to consider that, I would most probably have the blessing time with him as a soulmate.
It's true that how long we have been together is not something that can secure our relationship. Anything can happen. Another friend of mine tells me that currently she is stalking someone's FB to know who did he coupled with and why they broke up after 3 years. It strikes me right away since I finally notice that years are just numbers. Although it is a thing that we can be proud of too.
Yes, I know that you and I might have an intersection of idea here. For me, there's no need to spare time to have fun first before getting married. Marrying is not interpreted as giving birth ASAP or being a man's slave. But why not treating yourself with good time while waiting for the one? It's not a contradictory statement. I think my dear readers are all smart people to digest this line. Once again, I know that this issue is a big thing. Getting involved with the wrong person is of course an unfortunate story of life.
But how long will you keep your faith on the idea of preserving youth and living your life to the fullest before making that turning point? Actually we are having fun right now. And we will continue having fun even after this. At least I believe that I will. Do you?
I am so impatient to have a new stage in life. After re-reading my friend's post about delivering a baby and comments, I think I am eager to be a wife and a mother. I know that the responsibilities are quite challenging. But seems now I have already be somebody's other part, I am at least 80% sure that I am ready to tie a knot with him officially. Don't get me wrong. It's not about that sexual attraction or what so ever.
Now both of us has started seriously planning about our future. We have a target that we must by hook or by crook accomplish the mission end of this year. I am turning 23 next year. Does anyone might have a clue why am I not suppose to worry about life? Seeing old friends walk around the job streets and some might already start their own business, I personally think that I don't have a specific duration just to enjoy myself before married. If I still have to consider that, I would most probably have the blessing time with him as a soulmate.
It's true that how long we have been together is not something that can secure our relationship. Anything can happen. Another friend of mine tells me that currently she is stalking someone's FB to know who did he coupled with and why they broke up after 3 years. It strikes me right away since I finally notice that years are just numbers. Although it is a thing that we can be proud of too.
Yes, I know that you and I might have an intersection of idea here. For me, there's no need to spare time to have fun first before getting married. Marrying is not interpreted as giving birth ASAP or being a man's slave. But why not treating yourself with good time while waiting for the one? It's not a contradictory statement. I think my dear readers are all smart people to digest this line. Once again, I know that this issue is a big thing. Getting involved with the wrong person is of course an unfortunate story of life.
But how long will you keep your faith on the idea of preserving youth and living your life to the fullest before making that turning point? Actually we are having fun right now. And we will continue having fun even after this. At least I believe that I will. Do you?
I want your babies!!!!
Dear all my friends,
I am writing here in to ask for your kindness and greatest mercy in order to create a new sophisticated future generations. Seems like it is hard to change people's mind and their way of thinking. So I suggest that we help the new generations and let them be a competitive society. This can lead to development of our economical and political aspects. We are keen to move forward and increase our standard in the eye of the world. There will be one day that we can walk freely on the streets without having a strange look from others. And when they ask, "Where are you from?" We can proudly say, "I'm from Malaysia!" without a need to continue with "Do you know Malaysia?"
So friends, please support me to accomplish my mission and lend your hands in my upcoming project. I know that someday all my friends will get married and have the cutest babies. These babies are our next generation and they are going to rule the world one fine day. Therefore, trust me and let me take care of your babies for a while until the project is done. You can see the layout of my project in this video.
Please note that here I mean only cute babies k. No external grown up babies. Haha :)
I am writing here in to ask for your kindness and greatest mercy in order to create a new sophisticated future generations. Seems like it is hard to change people's mind and their way of thinking. So I suggest that we help the new generations and let them be a competitive society. This can lead to development of our economical and political aspects. We are keen to move forward and increase our standard in the eye of the world. There will be one day that we can walk freely on the streets without having a strange look from others. And when they ask, "Where are you from?" We can proudly say, "I'm from Malaysia!" without a need to continue with "Do you know Malaysia?"
So friends, please support me to accomplish my mission and lend your hands in my upcoming project. I know that someday all my friends will get married and have the cutest babies. These babies are our next generation and they are going to rule the world one fine day. Therefore, trust me and let me take care of your babies for a while until the project is done. You can see the layout of my project in this video.
Please note that here I mean only cute babies k. No external grown up babies. Haha :)
A warm call to Malaysia
I just called home and guess what?? My dad told that my terrible sis n brother are emptying his pocket, since there's no me there. Damn it!! Not forget to mention, my mom a.k.a Datin Halijah. They seems to enjoy going out with my dad lately. I advised him not to go out with them because it always turns up to be extra extravaganza shopping day. Haishh...what's left for me in the end?
I asked my bro, what did he get for birthday present and what about mom and that obes sis. He told me that he wondered around men's floor alone and they were at women's section. Where was dad? And he said, "He waited at the cashier la." Ini lah anak2 Talib yang keji, excluded me. For my dad, he got himself a yellow crocodile back home. He said, "White crocodile will cost more." What is it with the colours of crocodile? "Colours mean standards. Green to blue to yellow to white."Ach so desuka! Then I told that there're so many ciplak crocodile in town. He simply replied, "Yang ciplak tu ekoq boya dia herot kot lain." I found this statement a lil bit funny. Laugh out loud online here. Hahahahahaha <(^_^)>
My dad has came out with new method. Next time, he won't go to shopping complex/hypermarket with them. He'll just give a fix amount to my mom and pandai2 la blanja. Hahaha. But the problem is, my siblings are just to good at persuasiveness. I think that is the only talent they have. At the end of the day, my mom turns up to use her personal pocket money and later claims from the boss. Ayat popular from Wani and Ariff, "Sapa lagi nk pakai duit papa kalo bukan Wani, Ariff n kak Hanim." Luckily there never forget to mention my name. Or I kick them right away! Good luck with your new strategy papa. Gambate!!
Therefore, I told my dad to use his money to go to London. He said, "Papa tak kisah. Hanim jugak kata nak bagi balik." Then I said, "Memang la..Skrg Hanim nk pkai pi London la plak. Dah mama pon kata ok." He replied, "Suka hati ang la." Do you sense my kelingness here?? Haha :) We'll see IF and only IF I have extra money to pay him back. Jangan marah ye papa.. You're turning 52 tau.
Tomorrow I'll call home again to speak with Datin. She's already in a deep sleep just now. I'm happy that my family seems to be a lot and lot happier now. They'll be having a bbq party this Sunday. The sad fact about this is I'm not gonna be there. Hmm....next time maybe. It's good that my dad dah tak ada muka versi hijau or biru anymore ;)
Alhamdullillah for everything.
I asked my bro, what did he get for birthday present and what about mom and that obes sis. He told me that he wondered around men's floor alone and they were at women's section. Where was dad? And he said, "He waited at the cashier la." Ini lah anak2 Talib yang keji, excluded me. For my dad, he got himself a yellow crocodile back home. He said, "White crocodile will cost more." What is it with the colours of crocodile? "Colours mean standards. Green to blue to yellow to white."Ach so desuka! Then I told that there're so many ciplak crocodile in town. He simply replied, "Yang ciplak tu ekoq boya dia herot kot lain." I found this statement a lil bit funny. Laugh out loud online here. Hahahahahaha <(^_^)>
My dad has came out with new method. Next time, he won't go to shopping complex/hypermarket with them. He'll just give a fix amount to my mom and pandai2 la blanja. Hahaha. But the problem is, my siblings are just to good at persuasiveness. I think that is the only talent they have. At the end of the day, my mom turns up to use her personal pocket money and later claims from the boss. Ayat popular from Wani and Ariff, "Sapa lagi nk pakai duit papa kalo bukan Wani, Ariff n kak Hanim." Luckily there never forget to mention my name. Or I kick them right away! Good luck with your new strategy papa. Gambate!!
Therefore, I told my dad to use his money to go to London. He said, "Papa tak kisah. Hanim jugak kata nak bagi balik." Then I said, "Memang la..Skrg Hanim nk pkai pi London la plak. Dah mama pon kata ok." He replied, "Suka hati ang la." Do you sense my kelingness here?? Haha :) We'll see IF and only IF I have extra money to pay him back. Jangan marah ye papa.. You're turning 52 tau.
Tomorrow I'll call home again to speak with Datin. She's already in a deep sleep just now. I'm happy that my family seems to be a lot and lot happier now. They'll be having a bbq party this Sunday. The sad fact about this is I'm not gonna be there. Hmm....next time maybe. It's good that my dad dah tak ada muka versi hijau or biru anymore ;)
Alhamdullillah for everything.
what i hate to see on youtube
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Transgender surgery. Korang kene tgk. Bukan porn pon. Untuk pendidikan dan muhasabah diri. Sekejap je pon surgeon tu buat. Maklum lah, nk potong2 ni senang aje. Tengok satu video cukup tau. Aku personally sayang kot body parts yg sedia ada nih. Lemak2 terkecuali. Bayangkan suatu hari nnti bapok2 ni menyesal tak sudah la buat benda bodoh tu, mana dh nk cari benda nk tampal2 balik. Kalo nk tampal tu pkai stapler jer tak pe la jgk. ~:~:~:~No.2~:~:~:~
A part of drama's episode which is completely silent due to copyright. Ni pon aku tak suke. Pantang btul tgh2 part best die tak de suara la plak. When will the production stop fighting with technology? Cilop ayat Torrent sket. Patutnye sume citer kena ada subtitle. Baru la tak menonong je aku tgk drama bisu tu. Kalo dia maki aku pon, tak prasan gamaknye.
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NameWee. Ni sekor lagi sengal. Otak die aku rasa kat celah buntut la. Tu yg tersepit je pemikiran tu. Sekali keluar busuk memanjang. Baru2 ni ada wat bising jgk. Pasal black out pon nk hangin satu badan. Kalo aku la jadi PM, aku suh dia tinggal dlm gua kat puncak gunung ledang tu. Tak boleh turun2 dh. Malam2 pkai kayu api. Pastu makan la cabai burung yg tumbuh sesuka hati kat mana2 tu. Tak payah mengidam la nk ada wifi. Baru ko tau langit tu tinggi ke rendah.
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Shot2 tangkap basah kat Tasik Permaisuri or mana2 tasik lah. Ni yg kena tangkap tu sengal. Yg tukang buat video ni pon lagi berganda sengalnya. Aku rasa org yg buat video ni obesiti, hodoh, boyot, banyak jerawat masak mcm Bepop, ada kudis buta ngn cancer mulut sebab kuat merokok. Sebab tu dia jeles tak da org nak kat dia. Aku rasa jabatan agama tak datang terjah bawak V-cam. Pastu wat video siang2. Konpem la kau tu sengal! Aku 99% sure lepas kau candid video diorang, kau blah gitu je. Ni spesis org terlebih hayat hidup. Aku menyampah tgk bukan sebab couple2 tu, tapi geli dengar suara tuan video ni tau. Do it in a proper way la guys.
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A video with a still wallpaper and background music. Tak da la tak suka sangat. Tapi uploader ni mcm tak berusaha ja nk buat the best untuk upload kat youtube. Aku leh buat pkai window movie maker. Kalo dh noob IT or butech tu, tak payah la menyumbang kepadatan youtube tu. Paling koman pon letak la lirik. Synchronize ngn lagu bagi aku senang sket nak karaoke. Kalo la ini dikira art, aku leh buat seratus tau!
